(Looking back on it now, I can see how it happened and laugh. But the shock on my face when I realized I was holding a deep fear of embarrassing myself in front of all of these individuals.)
I found Michelle through a YouTube spiral while I was editing one day. She had a 10-minute breathwork meditation video. I had been doing meditation for a year at this point, off and on - when it happened it did. But I hadn’t ever done Breathwork, and I am a curious human. I learned the breathing pattern - inhale twice, through the mouth, once into the belly, once into the chest, and let the air deflate out of me. Keep it circular, keep it going. This 10-minute mediation had me sobbing by the end of it. I wish I could remember exactly what came up, what I released. But it was powerful. I was hooked.
SEEN was a 4-week creative expression workshop with the intention to honor your soul. Each of the four weeks there was a theme to focus on, talk about, write about, and share with the group.
Week One: Permission to Desire
Week Two: A Reimagined Childhood
Week Three: Reclaiming Missed Moments
Week Four: Living Your Desires
Each week brought its own set of resistance, painful emotions, and vulnerability to both share and listen to what others’ hearts were aching to have heard. I had been yearning for this type of community for months, as I had been deep in my healing journey. (Those on a similar journey know there are parts of it that are deeply lonely.)
Signing off on that last session brought me both immediate grief and immediate joy. I had completed this workshop that was directly in line with everything I have been working towards and learning - and now it was over.
And with that, here I am writing my second blog post. Aching to be seen in a community sense once again.
Looking forward to continuing to hold space for what I wish to share, and I invite you to follow along with me.
LET THESE BE HEARD BY YOU, IN YOUR VOICE, IN YOUR OWN HEART.
Here are some affirmations that have been helpful for me throughout April & May 2022:
- I know my needs better than anymore else.
- I know myself better than anyone else.
- I don’t need to be perfect to be loved.
- I am aligning with who I am, who I’ve always been.
- What I want to share means something and the deep desire to share is a calling.
- I am uniquely me, and that is a gift.
- & because of that - my purpose is to be me.
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